Pep Talk

I am nervous. 

Not only am I nervous, but thanks to those folks at Hy-Vee spending the big bucks in the marketing department...I can't get away from they Hy-Vee Triathlon hoopla!  It is everywhere!  I go to the Channel 13 News website to check the radar and a bike rider comes zooming across the screen talking about the Tri.  Every time I turn to Channel 13 (which is apparently more than I would have guessed) I see a commercial.  I shop at Hy-Vee...so obviously I see it there....I even bring it home in their special Tri plastic bags and little inserts!  GAH! 

This morning the commercial came on and I must have made an involuntary comment of nervousness and Kaity picked up on it.  This was the extend of the conversation that followed:

Me:
Kaity: What?
Me: The Tri commercial!  It is making me nervous
Kaity: Why?
Me: Because I am scared!
Kaity: You should be scared for ME...not for YOU
Me:  I am not scared for you honey...I know you can do it...you're gonna do awesome
Kaity: My Triathlon is going to be done before I know it...and yours will too....YOU CAN DO IT!
Me: I know I can DO it, but I am still nervous
Kaity: What are you nervous about?
Me: The swim...Kaity, I won't even be able to touch when I am swimming....
Kaity: But you know how to swim....(in that Silly Rabbit tone)
Me:

DUH...of course I can swim...why do I keep freaking myself out?  I've had the "I'm nervous" conversation probably over a dozen times with a dozen people in the last week...but this one really hit home!

Thank you baby girl!!  For making your momma feel better....for helping me get out of my head and out of my way so I can see the POSSIBLE that is right in front of me.  Instead of the impossible that never even existed.

I know that I will still be nervous, but before I think I was looking at it as a tall and wide wall...an obstacle to overcome before I even step a toe in the water....now I see that nervousness is nothing more than a fog...a mist to be cleared away.......